At 20 ft., the cliff jumping point in Tangadan Falls in San Gabriel, La Union is the highest I have ever dropped in. So far. Last summer I did a 10 ft. one in glorious Bagac, Bataan. I was more scared of that one. First time jitters.
Of course, 20 ft. is still serious but no drama. I find I do not mind falling. It is easy. Just stand on the edge and take the fall. To hell I must go. No matter what happens you will hit the water. Eventually.
I was not sure how to clear it in my mind. Hard to take the fall without conviction so maybe next time.
If I did not come from death camp, no complaints. BUT I FUCKING DID.
Do not be a pussy. You did not walk all that damned Scorch Trial way for fucking nothing.