Calm, serene, peaceful – I am absolutely none of these. Why else do you think I train muay thai? But sidelined with an injury, it is time to get creative. Lest my brain rots.
Every day this past week, I attended Gentle and Vinsaya Flow yoga classes. What an incredibly odd practice! Well, not really odd, just that it is completely far removed from my fight training.
In yoga, I am encouraged to surrender, accept, and let go – insults if I am fighting muay thai!
First time coming into my mat, I am alienated by the mindset. I am so used to hitting the gym fueled by the sheer force of aggression alone, to focus on taking the other person’s head off or it will be mine falling down. But there is no one to fight in yoga. What do I do?
But with every pose and breath, I discover a new side of myself. Sometimes, I struggle and get gloriously distracted or bored, but the hours in yoga class are some of the quietest, stillest, and most focused of my life.
It feels good to finish every session with a sensation of hard work, minus exhaustion. There is a clarity and lightness – almost like a trance – that comes after each practice, so different from how I leave a muay thai training session!
Yoga does not make me feel homicidal, or at least it minimizes my urges to commit mass murder.
I have not worked out how to facilitate both yoga and muay thai training once my wrist fully heals, but I plan to keep going. Strangely, this seems good for me. As if the magma of the Earth is setting.
This should be interesting.